zephyr_marie

My first plane trip, from Albuquerque, NM to Frakfurt, Germany

2009-08-27T17:06:43Z

It was a pretty awesome first plane trip to travel to Europe.

One day, I'll be good at this

2009-07-16T17:26:03Z

Photography and editing - I love taking photos, but I get more misses than hits and would love to just take amazing photos 90% of the time at least.

One of my quirks: Needs breaks every few hours

2009-06-25T16:34:04Z

Needs breaks every few hours
If stuck in the car for extremely long stretches of time I tend to get a little wacky and stir-crazy and down-right annoying. I have to get out to walk around and stretch every few hours to maintain my sanity.

Must have tunes!
Music is soooo important for a good road trip - preferably mix cds made especially for the trip.

My life would make a great movie

2009-06-25T16:31:44Z

I think it would probably be categorized as a dramedy - leaning more towards comedy - one of those strange ones you come across on the Indie channel - not always good, not always interesting, but with some very good moments in between.

Wanna buy some Books?

2009-06-15T14:11:12Z

book shelf project 1 ~ striatic {notes}

Books - any and all kinds - new as well as used and of course a little antique section.

Hello, my name is... Zephyr

2009-06-08T19:13:34Z

I like the way it sounds and I think it suits me.

'Phantasmagoria ' sounds so sweet

2009-06-04T18:57:34Z

Phantasmagoria
It's fun

Splendiferous
Another fun and happy word

cheesecake
It's magical and delicious

Hooray

2009-05-27T20:01:40Z

We're engaged!! I haven't shouted that here yet, and strongly felt the need to do so. :p Yay.

'Ferris Bueller's Day Off' deserves to be watched over and over

2009-05-26T14:02:45Z

For some reason it just doesn't get old - not for me anyway. It's one of my favorite weekend movies.

I'm a cat person

2009-05-15T15:49:22Z

I like that they can take care of themselves and be independent, yet I love snuggling and there is no more relaxing sound than that of a purr. There are so many characteristics that I love about cats.

zephyr_marie @ 2009-05-12T13:36:00

2009-05-12T18:37:04Z

I knew that coming back from vacation would be hard, but I wasn't expecting a full-blown depression trigger. One of those days where I pretend to have allergies to explain why my eyes keep watering for no other reason than... I'm not entirely sure what. I feel tired and unexplainably sad. I realize even more how much I hate my job(s) and as I scan through multiple job sites... there's nothing that stands out, or if it does I haven't got the skills required or the education or the experience they want. I'm competing against hundreds of other people every time I send out my resume and it's depressing. I don't know what to do at this point. Am I making any of the right decisions? I'll try to do the medical transcription thing still, but what if that's the wrong choice... and that still means I'm stuck where I am until I finish or until I can find something else, but when I finish the course, I have to get a new job anyway - as long as there is actually something available at the time, that is. I really don't think I can stay at this current job until that time, though. I really can't stand it. What can I do, though? I'm stuck until I can find something else, or until they fire me, whichever comes first. Hopefully not the latter, but that means I have to paste a smile on my face and try and motivate myself to do my job well, and that's really really hard to do. Why is this so hard? I'm at a loss. Would I be happier if I quit the second job so at least I wouldn't be so tired? Then I'd have to be much better about my spending, but would it make my day job more bearable? What if I do find another job that doesn't pay as much, though? Then I might need the second job... I'm at a loss. All I know is my head is killing me and I'm not looking forward to working tonight.

The magic bullet sells itself

2009-04-29T13:58:00Z

For a year we only had an antenna and every Saturday morning you could cound on the Magic Bullet infomercial. It's actually pretty awesome and I use it all the time, plus, how can you not love the name? :p

Magic Bullet!

Ha ha, I totally have a Magic Bullet.

My journey

2009-04-28T20:15:22Z

After wandering around a dilapidated carnival full of roller coasters and spinning tea cups, leering carnies, and greasy food I finally decided to fly away and begin anew.

Gimme five minutes with Britney Spears

2009-04-28T20:10:12Z

I think she's got problems like anyone else and it would be hard to deal with any problem when you're under the spotlight and have so many people judging you and watching you.

When the rescue ship comes, I'll tell 'em: Come back in a year

2009-04-17T14:34:23Z

Another year away from the rest of the world might not be a bad idea - especially if I'm getting along with the other person and we have plenty of food and whatnot. Why not stay longer?

zephyr_marie @ 2009-04-16T11:48:00

2009-04-16T16:49:39Z

This nice weather is not helping with my motivation and concentration at work. I'm having such a dificult time staying on task and my mind just wanders to other things. I'm thinking about our trip back to Colorado, I'm planning Josh's party, and okay, so I've been looking at wedding blogs and getting ideas for my own wedding, which is bound to happen eventually. I want to be outside and soaking up the sun, taking pictures - I want to play with my new camera, which arrived yesterday. I want to garden, I want to buy a house and decorate it with all of the ideas circling my brain. I want to throw a garden dinner party and put twinkle lights everywhere and dance under the stars... Literally my mind just won't stop twisting and turning and it wants to create and do and I feel like I'm being wasted sitting at a desk filing and scanning... If I'm really good, with my raise, I might just be able to quit my second job and have more free time to be creative again.

Oh, for three more hours

2009-04-16T14:33:21Z

Oooh - I have so many things I need to get done, so I would probably use it to be a busy bee - make phone calls, clean my office, and then use the rest of the time to relax - I'm exhausted!

First rule of relationships: Communication

2009-04-13T13:46:15Z

Communication
You have to talk about everything - without good communication - good luck.

Honesty
Do I really need to explain why?

Laughter

zephyr_marie @ 2009-04-08T15:45:00

2009-04-08T20:46:36Z

I've been feeling rather invisible lately. It seems like a weekly occurance to go out to my car and now find a new ding or otherwise from someone hitting my car. There's some lovely white paint on my rear bumper that I found the other day. You know, up until we moved here... my car had never been hit or anything, then within a month of moving to MN... bam. Then there is being seen by a person one minute only to have them come back later and be surprised to see you, having them say, "Oh, I didn't realize you were here." Trying to get a simple answer also seems to be difficult this morning. All I asked was one specific thing and I'm sitting there while they're going around and around (not really even talking to me) and I just wanted to wave my hand after repeating myself for the third time and say, "Hello? Can you hear me? Are you even listening to what I'm asking? All I want to know is what company this is for. That's all. Nothing more. I know where and how to file it beyond that, but I just want to know one simple thing, what company? A two second answer took about five minutes and part of me wanted to laugh and just walk away and do whatever and they probably wouldn't have noticed at that point anyway. Ha ha - Update - I'm not even on the company organizational chart. Awesome. There are people who just started who are on it, but not me.

It probably sounds melodramatic, but this happens fairly regularly... people just don't really see me. I'm apparently very transparent, which is good in some ways, but frustrating in others and I don't know how to change it. It seems I have this enormous bubble around me, and I'm sure I've managed to put it there myself, but now how to get rid of it and become the person I would like to be? I don't want to be meek and shy and mousy and frumpy. I have taste and style and can be fun when you get to know me, but I admit that isn't easy to do, because I am shy and feel socially awkward when it comes to making friends. Right now I feel so out of place in my own body at times... I feel frumpy and gawky and like that horribly awkward girl standing in the corner of the room who people sadly whisper about. I want to be that vivacious girl with the infectious laugh and smile who is confident and care-free and not afraid to be herself. I know, it's my choice, right? Why is it so damn hard to change oneself?

When I grow up...

2009-04-06T14:34:38Z

Creative Genius/ Professional Eccentric

Ramona brings me back

2009-03-31T14:00:59Z

Ramona and I had a lot in common when I was younger.

Here, have a million dollars

2009-03-31T13:59:33Z

Hmmm... I would probably split the money between animal charities and environmental agencies. Animals because I have a soft spot in my heart for all creatures great and small and various environmental agencies because in many ways they're protecting various animals, but also trying to undo the damage we humans have done to the world around us.

I demand Free Books and DVDs for Life!

2009-03-27T13:26:47Z

Free Books and DVDs for Life!
So that my growing collections of both can expand even more spectacularly!

Zombies!

2009-03-26T17:47:26Z

Preparation is key! Don't panic and survive and stock-pile zombie kiling weapons of a variety and most importantly find a safe location to hide out in and that is somewhat easy to defend, but not too remote either... holy cow, I'm not prepared at all!

My bucket list starts with: Write a book

2009-03-23T15:04:28Z

Write a book
I like to write and have so many ideas, but rarely do I see any of my projects come to completion. Even if it's horrible, I'd like to write a book beginning to end.

See the world!
There are so many things and places I'd love to see - Stongehenge, Easter Island, Antarctica

Start my own business
I think it would be really nice to work for myself one day.

Get my degree
Preferably in Psychology, but even if I could just get a Liberal Arts degree I'd feel like I accomplished some of my educational goals.

Get really good at photography
It's a hobby I greatly enjoy, and something I'd like to get really good at - maybe to a point where I could make a little money off of it.